Chapter 18

Devon noticed that Ivan have been sweeter to her lately. Sending flowers, texting and calling her while he's at work. Devon's wondering why. He tried talking to Kyra and Lauren about Ivan's actions. "Baka naman kasi naga-alala lang yung tao, syempre andito na kayo sa Australia, andito si James..." sabi ni Kyra. "Siguro nga..." pagsasang-ayon ni Devon. Devon heard the doorbell. "Sandali lang, tingnan ko muna kung sino ang nasa pinto," Devon excused herself.

She was surprised to see Carina, James' younger sister. "Hi ate Devon," Carina said shyly. "Come.. come in," sabi ni Devon sa bisita. Carina said her hellos to both Lauren and Kyra. "Ate Devon, can we talk in private?" Carina asked Devon. The latter nodded and took Carina to the balcony. "How did you know where I'm staying?" Devon asked. "Well, I'm a daughter of a powerful business man. We have our ways..." Carina said. "It's so good to see you ate," Carina said, softly. "You too Carina," Devon smiled. "Ate, I have a huge favor to ask..." Carina asked. "Sure, I'll do it," Devon said. Carina took a deep breath. "Can you get back together with my brother?" Carina asked, pleading with her eyes. "I... I can't do that..." Devon said. "He's been miserable these past years. I can't take seeing my brother that miserable. I know he loves you and I know you love him, too," Carina said, tears threatening to fall from here eyes. "I loved him Carina, I admit. But he hurted me so much Carina..." Devon said. "Can't you forgive my brother for love? Please..." Carina pleaded. "Carina, I'm really sorry..." Devon said. She took out a notebook from her bag and gave it to devon. "Well, I respect your decision.." Carina said and left. Devon went back to the living room. "Anong napag-usapan nyo?" Lauren asked. "James..." ang matipid na sagot ni Devon. Sinimulan nyang basahin ang mga sulat.

Dear Devon,
 I'm sorry. I really am. Can you please come back? I've missed you. I missed your cooking, your thoughtfulness and you're smile. I was stupid, I do admit. I've been fooling myself for so long. I was trying my best not to fall for you, but I did anyway. I used Ann as an excuse to myself all this time. I used to love Ann, but everything's just changed when I got to know you better. But I kept denying it. I really am sorry. I don't know where you are right now, but please, come back.

                                                                                       James


It was a notebook, full of letters, written for her. Nakita ni Devon na nagulo ang sulat ng tubig. Pero alam nya, sa loob nya, na mga luha yon ni James. Tears are falling out of her eyes from reading James' first letter. She turned the page and read the second one. 

Dear Devon,
  It's been three months now. I'm still hoping you're gonna come back. Are you doing well? I'm miserable right now. I'm miserable with out you. Please come back.
                                                                                       James


She skipped pages to read the latest letter.

Dear Devon,
 I saw you earlier. You can't believe how happy I am to see you. I'm sorry I made you sad. Again.
 I admit, I was sad to hear that you thought I was Ivan. What a lucky guy he is. I wish I was the one in his shoes. My heart broke, I admit when you said you're happy with him. That was selfish of me, I know. But I'm truly glad you find your happiness. That's the thing I'm hoping for. I still love you devon. I still do, up until now. Maybe it's stupid for me to keep waiting. But I guess, that's what love does to some people.

                                                                                  James

Devon's tears won't stop. She admits, she still love James. But a part of her kept denying it. She's also afraid of hurting Ivan.

Ivan. The guy who've been with her through everything. Her guardian angel. She can't bear the thought of hurting him

Now, she's confused....

"If you still love James, I say, go for it," Lauren said, warpping her arms around Devon's shoulder. "Pero Lo, I can't hurt Ivan! Sya lang ang kadamay ko nung mga panahon di ko alam kung saan ako pupunta. Di ko kayang saktan si Ivan...." Devon said. "Pero hindi mo ba nare-realize Devz? Mas masasaktan lang si Ivan kung papaasahin mo sya. And alam ko, you will regret it if you don't follow your feelings," Lauren explained. "No Lo, I have build a wall around me these past years, and di ko na hahayaan pang makapasok si James sa walls na yun. Di ko na kayang masaktan pa," Devon said. "Well you're being selfish Devon! You're not thinking about Ivan's happiness! You're thinking about your feelings! If you really care about Ivan, consider his feelings. Paano kung ikasal kayo, then one day dun mo ma-realize na di mo pala kayang turuan ang puso mo? Ano sa tingin mo ang mangyayari?" Lauren said, trying to make Devon see sense. "Let's go Lo, I think Devon needs time to think," Kyra said, pulling Lauren's hand.


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